I don’t like whiney posts. I also don’t like airing all of my issues to the entire world two people who actually read this thing. But here I am because I need to get a few things off my chest and regroup.
Self reflecting sucks. I never have, nor will I ever in the future, claim to be perfect or have all of life’s answers. I make mistakes all the time but do my best to learn from them. That being said, we are using a behavior therapist for both of the boys now. It has certainly made me take a step back and wonder if it’s the boys…or if it’s me and Jason. Yelling has become the first form of communication with our kids and spankings occur frequently. I wasn’t raised this way and I swore that I wouldn’t raise my kids this way either…so what the heck has happened? I have come to realize that Jason and I have two very different parenting styles and I’ve begun to conform to his way of parenting. It’s very humbling to have a third-party point out how this is effecting Ayden (and probably Jameson as well). In Jason’s defense, he recognizes that he needs to make some drastic changes to be a better daddy as well. We’ll be spending lots of time this week setting up a game plan (with help from the therapist) and hopefully see some results soon. I’ll be sharing some of the things we’re putting into place in future posts.
I’m also very sad to say that Jameson’s wonderful teacher, Ms Katie, was accepted into West Georgia’s education program so is no longer with LKW. While I’m so proud of her that she’s following her dreams to be a fabulous teacher, Jameson and I miss her so very much. I’m not thrilled with his new teacher, Ms Michelle, and after one meeting with his behavior therapist and speech therapist, I know they’re not thrilled with her either. Ms Michelle has an autistic son and started making comparisons between her son and Jameson. At one point Jan (the behavior therapist) came right out and asked if she was implying that Jameson was autistic and if she was she should stop right there because Jameson has been evaluated by two different agencies and autism has definitely been ruled out. I wanted to give her a standing ovation. It’s probably not surprising that we have another meeting this Friday and we’ve invited the daycare director to join us this time.
While baby Ava is no cake walk, she is definitely a joy to be around. She’s developing quite the personality and can hold her own with her brothers. She’s going to be a feisty one:) We’re trying all sorts of normal food with her but she still wants her bottles during the day. Mostly at nap and night-time though. I can only hope that Jason and I can figure things out with the boys so that when it’s Ava’s turn, we’ll have most of the answers:)
Jason has been stressed lately with some changes and short hours at work. Now is not the time to be job hunting, but it’s not easy for him to wait patiently for things to get better. I’m doing everything in my power to support him but what I really want to do is march into his bosses office and give him a piece of my mind.
I’m swamped at work. These days I’m wearing two hats…Payroll Accountant and HR Generalist. While this keeps me very busy, I enjoy the challenge and the added responsibilities. Unfortunately, all of the deadlines keep me away from blogging and cruising the internet looking for creative inspiration.
I know that Jason and I are going to get through all of this. The most important thing is that we love each other and our kids and there is nothing that we wouldn’t do to keep our family happy, healthy and strong.
